I'm Alive:

Yeah so I've been drowning myself in books, numbers, and equations ... BUT I'M ALIIIIVE ... for now ... I got an 80 on my fucken trig test and like ... I felt like I won EVERY AWARD IN THE EFFING WORLD .. Culture/Fashion show is in A WEEK ... I need to start practicing in my heels b4 I trip and fall on my face ....and TRUST ME .. I've been having WAAY TOO MANY nose bleeds lately ...from "UNEXPECTED DELIVERIES" .. Gotta go practice tomorrow with my partner and it's gonna be HOT AND BORING -_- ... my stomach was growling earlier and so I told it to be quiet and my mother walks up to me and hands me 10 bux tells me to get myself a sandwhich or something ... I was too lazy to go so I haven't ate since 3 ... and now I want that sandwhich. You know when u have really dried lips ... and they crack...and then peel..and then bleed a little ...that's how mine are right now ... :D HAPPY OCTOBER 3RD DAY.


p.s.
My cousin is doing okay now ... crazy heart murmurs ..

Conversation OVERDOSE:

I just noticed nobody blogs anymore ... so I felt like I should. I feel like I'm on top of the world right now ..it's like UH-MAY-ZING. I'm on top of my school work ... I have money in the bank .. I payed all my bills ..my friends love me ...my family loves me..and then BOOM..it's like ..."ALL FALL DOWN"... my cousin is in the hospital due to heart problems ..he's 19 turning 20 this month. It's a bit sad ... he's at the peak of his 20s and like THIS happens. I didn't get a chance to see him yet but my brothers went and they said he's up and talking ... due to low potassium and dehydration, and also b/c his heart isn't functioning very well, his blood circulation is like very irregular and doctors are afraid he's gonna get blood clots around his arms and legs so they've rapped em' up. I'M SHOCKED..it's hard to imagine. Test results haven't come back yet but I HOPE it's nothing life threatening .. too much has happened already this year ..no more.

Anyway, on the brighter side of things..I'M DONE WITH MY HW FOR THE WEEK. YAY FOR KT. Thank you ...and goodnight.

Katie SPEAKS:

090409: My niece told me her butt talked when she farted -2 years old.

Thursday: The other day I almost broke my tongue trying to pronounce a japanese dude's name ...it was hardcore stuff. -_-

Horrible Day:

How do you get hangovers w/o drinking the night before ? Apparently that's how I felt all day ... LIKE SHIT. So, this morning drove to school ... parking was HELL. Drove around for parking for an hour ... NOTHING. Even carpool was all taken. I had to go park at the other parking lot FAR ACROSS CAMPUS ...SUPER FAR frm my class ...[good thing I went early..not time to study tho -_-] came back after class ... waited for my sister to get out of her class ... drove back to the other parking lot to find parking and wait for her ...STILL NO PARKING. Everything's just been chaotic due to the increase of students this year ... the school needs to make more parking space for students and LESS for FACULTY. blah...

Bad Dreams:

Bad dreams lead to:

-waking up at 4 in the morning
-neck cramps
-facebook games
-an empty [i think i have a whole in my stomach.] stomach
-painful eye sockets.

Having a dream about your cousin shooting himself in the head isn't really the most pleasant dream. Especially when everything seemed almost as though it were real. *Sigh ... so since there really isn't anything to do at the moment ... since it's 5 already ... I figure WHY NOT BLOG ABOUT IT. I think I've caught the Seung Bug. I've been having horrible sleeping patterns and waking up around this time isn't helping much. I don't know which brain cell triggers what up there but I really don't want to dream about this kind of stuff EVER AGAIN.

Can/Can't Sleep:

Stomach flu is keeping me up. I'm TIRED. This sickness is so random ... everyone have a good nights rest ...

Blah:

I've been having like miscellaneous thoughts lately ... I really don't know why. It's gotten me all like ... out of it. It's unclear as to why they pop up ... they just do ... sometimes I'll think about random stuff like ... being gone forever ... or like sometimes my mind just shuts off and i'll feel really weird/different ... I don't think it's depression. Honestly if it IS, iCRAZAAAY. Maybe I'm just overwhelmed ... I just moved back, school is in a week, I found out someone died, my uncle's 5 month death anniversary is coming up, my cousin took off in the middle of the night, my mom is sick ... and then Im just scared of like EVERYTHING ... so many WHAT IFS ... and blank thoughts. I just don't feel like myself atm and there's really no reason why Im like this ... these thoughts seem to NEVER GO AWAY.


ps. ROBIN KIM HATE ME NOW ... I really think you should. If there's no reason, I'll give you a reason.